So... I found gossips that cater to my needs, mainly JE stuff and some Korean and a little bit of Mando stuff. I got upset, by upset I mean depressed, over stuff I read about Pi and Jay. It makes the news_jpop comm look tame. It is, lah, mostly. I wonder if they purposely disallow gossips? I used to think that the company/manager/whathaveyou are really harsh by not allowing the members to have relationships but now I understand. Seriously, I thought I wouldn't be affected by such things. I thought only those crazycrazyseriouslycrazy fangirls would react to that. I'm so wrong. I'm glad SM has kept their boys safe. I'd be totally depressed if Jae's taken too. It's like strike three after Pi and Jay. So, on Pi, I found out he may/may not be attached. In any case, he at least has an ex who is so, omg, not desirable from what I've read. Think Wickham and Elizabeth. Wickham as Yuu and Elizabeth as Pi. They've been on/off for a long while. I'm sad. So much for "I'm wary of love". [You lied to me! Your words are like gold to me. How could you? You used to make me smile to myself just thinking about you like some idiot!] Oh, no, I'm not one of those crazycrazyseriouslycrazy fangirls. And I read that after I saw his hothotsizzlingHOT performance at their Pacific Tour at Tokyo Dome.

Like, totally broken hearted now. And, on Jay, I read here about the Jolin->Jay->Patty Hou saga. A bit slow, I know, but at that time I wasn't really familiar with Jay. And reading from her POV, it's just sad. He doesn't look like he'd do such things. Or maybe it's just me and my poor perception again. Anyway, that and coupled with my inability to differentiate reality from reeality, plus, my horrible brain which links totally unrelated thing together and my growing paranoia = a highly depressed me. Yayy for Jae, anyway. [Raul's married, he doesn't count. It's like legal.] Sooo, anyway, when I read Yuu's name the first time, my mind automatically jumped to Shirota Yuu, and I assumed that Pi was dating his sister of something [I'd prefer that, really. And anyway, I found out that 'Yuu's a common surname.] so I searched him and found THIS. I'm surprised he's not a JE boy. I guess he's not Jap enough? But who can't resist a half-Spanish half-Jap dude who's a real good-looker and taaall, in comparison to the short Jap dudes.

I checked the day today and realised that it was Tuesday, the day where my PMS comes regularly. Seriously regularly. Every last Tuesday of the month, I get terrible moodswings. So maybe I'm not really depressed. Maybe it's just my PMS acting up.

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